Anyone else dreading the day after baby when you have to go back to work?

I really feel a part of me will be happy, go back to my own routine/be my own person. But I am so worried of losing my bond with my baby girl.

Is that dumb? My mother in law will be watching her. Who I adore and trust completely, but the thought of her being closer to my baby makes me so sad! And my MIL does drive me crazy but that's just a personality thing.

Anyone have previous experience with this? Does your baby still bond with you after being with someone else 40hours a week? Also not sure if I will still be breastfeeding when I return. I feel like that would help with bonding but I work at a small place and breastfeeding may be weird/difficult.

Thoughts?