This is gonna be long, but bear with me please.

I had a hard time emotionally with breastfeeding right after my son was born, despite it being something I really wanted to do. His latch was always perfect; I just couldn’t comprehend cluster feeding and I didn’t have a good support system that understood breastfeeding better than me. So I would end up feeling selfish for trying to breastfeed him when he was clearly starving!! (Or so I thought) Thanks, pp hormones! I gave into giving him formula and I tried for weeks to keep alternating breastfeeding and formula feeding, and giving him my breast instead of a pacifier.

It was going well and I felt satisfied for the most part. But I recently went through a period where I gave up on breastfeeding because I just wasn’t satisfying him and now it’s killing me because I feel like I failed. I really want to try again but he doesn’t want my breast anymore. Not even for comfort. He sucks for a minute and then starts screaming and crying. It’s devastating to me and I feel like shit for giving up so easily.

Any advice on getting him back to into breastfeeding? My milks not dried up completely, but I know I’m not making anywhere close to what I would need to satisfy him right now. He’s a month and a half old.

Here’s a picture of my precious boy, just to make me feel better now that I’ve gotten myself upset again lol