I been with my boyfriend for two years. We started dating January 17th of 2017. Before that we talked for 6 months before we really put a “label” on us. When we finally put a label on it, we went really slow, eventually moved in together. We talked about kids. I was on birth control when I was in high school, and stopped taking it my senior year (2015) we started trying, and a year later nothing still has happened. When I was 9 days DPO I got a faint positive on a first response. My heart sank because I’ve been wanting this so bad. I pray every night before I go to bed. I was born to be a mom, I love children, and I was always the “mom figure” to all my friends. Well tonight when I went to the bathroom I noticed a little spotting and thought okay maybe it was implantation bleeding. Well as the night went on it got red and a little heavier. It definitely turned into my period. I cried & cried. It is literally the worst feeling in the world. When you want something so bad, and you try so hard. You see what you want & then it gets taken away, or the test was faulty. I felt like everything got ripped away from me. It’s been a long year of trying and I don’t know if I should even continue. I know I need to go to the doctors at this point. The both of us just moved so we are working on getting heath insurance. This is just so frustrating. I’m crying so much & I just want this pain to go away. I know god has a plan for everything. I will continue to pray & hope that god will give me what I want the most. For the girls who are in my shoes, you are not alone.