How the hell am I supposed to wait 5 more weeks to have sex !

I’m 8 days postpartum and I only had a 1st degree tear on my labia. And I’m not sore down there at all anymore. So I’m feeling back to normal and already lookin at my husband like he’s a sexy piece of meat 😂 I know I cant have sex til my bleeding stops and my doctor clears me but oh my lord how am I supposed to wait. Can I at least use a vibrator just externally??! 😢😢😢