Depressed TMI photos

My son is one and I have a seven year old daughter, last summer I started having problems with blood in my urine and I wasn’t able to fully empty my bladder and I was constantly using the bathroom I went to lots of doctors and hospitals because the amount of blood I had and I was treated for UTIs even though it came back negative. Finally after six months of hounding my doctor she sent me to a specialist. The urologist I met was very concerned and scheduled me for a CT scan to see if I had kidney stones, the scan showed a blockage but unsure of what it was so I was scheduled for surgery. The day of surgery came and after the procedure my doctor had a photo of my bladder and two tumors she removed and told me she was certain I had cancer 💔 I was in shock I bawled and didn’t understand how this happened I’m twentyfive and I do not smoke cigarettes which is how you get bladder cancer. I got a call a few days later and it was confirmed with pathology the tumors were cancer. I’m heartbroken and afraid of my future, I will be checked every few months and if I can go five years without any new tumors returning I’d be considered “cancer free” my doctor told me that it is very likely the cancer will return that bladder cancer is known for returning 😔 the pain after surgery was so terrible it hurt worse than giving birth which I gave birth without any pain medication. I had a stent put into my left kidney and a catheter for a week, it was absolutely terrible and so painful. I was told not to have any more children because of the risks i could have. I’m so depressed and afraid of what’s in store for me and my babies 😢

My family ❤️

The tumors that were removed.