So, I'm a hypochondriac I guess. I have anxiety and it centers around health, death etc. I mean, I freak out about everything else too. Kidnapping, molestation, bullies...everything. but health? I'm a mess. Today my 2 month old jerked to the right when he was asleep. Like a little crunch. To be fair, he has gas and did pass gas after. But I of course googled it and somehow ended up reading about Infantile Spasms. So now I'm convinced he has it. His startle reflex is super sensitive. And it says it's only a concern when they're awake and I dont think hes ever done it awake but I'm still a mess. What the hell. I wanna ask his dr but I know I'm being insane. I'm going to be obsessively watching him though. It says it shows up between 3 and 8 months so the dr would probably tell me it's just startle reflex anyway. Why am I so crazy?!?!,! Whats it like to be normal and not obsess over disease and health? Is it nice? I wish I could be normal:( I worried so long and googled so much that I forgot to shower and now I have to rush around and clean and shower. ugh