I’ve been selling phones for 5 months now. I’ve been screwing up time and time again and my job is causing me so much anxiety I have panic attacks over thinking about what I might have fucked up this day and what my next big talk from the boss is gonna be. I am not in a good place right now, very suicidal. I have always been good and proud of my work but this job just does not feel like the right fit for me at all. I’m looking for another job but at this point I don’t think I can wait much longer. I’m trying to calm myself down now my letting this out because I am worried I’m gonna get in trouble for something else. I hate my job so much. Like it is to the point where I can understand why someone might just stop showing up to work but I have a good personal relationship with my coworkers and can’t screw them over like that. If anyone has some advice I’d love to hear it.. my job is making me feel useless and like garbage about myself. I’m not good at it and I hate fucking everything up all the time there. I’m trying so hard but it seems every time I take a step forward I take 2 back. I’m sick of being the problem at work and I am sick of disappointing everyone there and myself.