I want to get baptized...

I’m not sure what group this should go in, but I figured I’d try here.

So I grew up being told that “God isn’t real” that “we come from apes” etc. My dad strongly believes in evolution (The Darwin Theory) So anytime I mentioned God was real my dad would shoot it down and say it was all fairytale. So I just let it go. My dad grew up in a very strong Catholic household btw.

Well in 8the grade I went to church with a friend a few times, I didn’t like the church. Then in high school I started going to another church with a friend, again didn’t quite like it. That was about 11 years ago.

I found myself in an extremely dark place due to my separation from my husband. (My fault, I fell into temptation) I started seeing a therapist, and working on myself. A few months later I reconnected with a friend, and we started dating. He asked me a few times to go to church with him and of course I was reluctant. I didn’t want to feel out of place even though I had this strong desire to know God. So eventually I gave in and went. The experience I had was absolutely amazing. I fell in love. Well, a month later, I fell pregnant, and two days after I found out we were leaving church and I miscarried in the church parking lot. I was completely broken. I took some time away from the church to heal, and instead of running towards God I ran from him. A few months later I suffered a second miscarriage. After that I started having this desire to get back into church. So we started going back in January. Haven’t missed a Sunday yet. And everyday I run closer and closer to God. I wouldn’t be lying if I said there were days I didn’t question things, or I didn’t struggle with my faith but every time I feel that way I push harder towards God. This past Sunday I stepped into church and worshiped God with everything in me and gave it all to him. I cried for the first time ever (I am getting watery eyes right now typing this😂😪) I walked out of that church feeling something I never thought I would.

But for sometime now I’ve wanted to get baptized, I’ve been praying about it. I just feel like I’m not a strong enough Christian and I feel unworthy of being baptized. I feel like I need to do more and be more to be worthy of it.

So my question is, when is the best time to get baptized?