Am I wasting my time?
I have been with my current boyfriend for 11 years off and on (because I left him for various reasons from clashing too much, we had a verbal argument go WAY TOO bad, we've gone to court, I mean there's so much we've been through) I was dating during our off times but he has NEVER dated, touched, been with another female. He's very spiritual which I like and admire. We also have two sons together (5&7) and we love them so much :-) I even had a boyfriend for a year but it didn't work out. I was dating for a few months and I thought I was on the right path with one guy but I knew it was too good to be true (ladies man BIG time) anyways I decided to give it another try... Because he loves me so much and every time we're "off" he's so upset and has even cried to me in person and over the phone about how I don't care about him or why not him and that all the other guys are no good and who do I always come back to (him-which is true) so with that being said we just had a little tension three nights ago, when I got off of work I saw him and our sons at the park (we don't live together) so I was so happy! I got held up by a customer by an hour so when I saw them it was just turning dark :-( so I didn't get to spend much time with them and my boyfriend was hugging me as if he hadn't seen me in a year... And gazing into my eyes and smiling. I asked what are you thinking and he said "how much I love you" "you're so warm" and I could see he was truely happy. This went on for 25 minutes LITERALLY! But out older son was "so hungry" and complaining so I said for them to go and call me later. Apparently we hadn't hung then phone up from my way over to the park, so we continued talking on he phone. Everything was great :-) I got to say good night to the boys. So back to us he wanted to know what I was laughing at and I told him (fave book related) he was ok with it. Then I saw another article I tought was funny "have her sleep over before you call her bae" basically a before and after with women with makeup and I told him (he's seen LOTS of these types of things because I show him-I'm a makeup artist and I just say look at the transformation) so he loudly say DON'T Show me that!!! I'm like 8-/ and he says I'm selective and I say I show you stuff like this or this women have I like. Then he says it's a certain type and how I don't want him looking at women but I choose the ones it's ok for him to look at. Then he went on to say that I'm not realizing that it doesn't matter what these women look like. That I'm not understanding that, he doesn't care about that (just physical-which he's very good about that I have NEVER had any problems like him looking at other women) but he snapped on me and said that I'm being ---- stupid. So I said what?! What's stupid (because I didn't hear exactly what he said but that something was stupid. So I asked him what's stupid and he said "YOU" so I said then don't talk to me and hung the phone up. And that was Sunday night, today is Wednesday and I haven't talked to him since:-/ it's like I know I don't have to settle but I don't know if this is the bad part of the " take the good with the bad " or if it's just a waste of my time. I am somewhat sensitive and I just don't know right now. He's a great person but given everything we've been through I just don't know if I should give the 11 years away and move on because that statement hurt my feelings. Also we follow each other on tumblr and he kept posting blogs yesterday and he hasn't been on there in weeks but he knows that I'll see (I get the notifications) and they were Obviosly for me with pictures of a lion (he's a Leo) and the lioness, quotes about being together, I'll see if I can post (in order from beginning to end-1st post " nothing changes......") . But I'm just at a stand still right now :-( 




















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