Ughhhh idk what’s wrong with me! I know most women look forward to their first appointment and I just don’t want to go! I was booked in with a midwife originally but when she got my previous birth records, decided I was too high risk for midwife care.

I can’t put my finger on why I have this extreme desire to avoid my appointment 😫 I’m over 8 weeks, I’ve already heard the heartbeat at home, I’ve done this before, I mostly just want to be left alone. I haven’t seen a doctor in about 6 years though so I know I NEED to go in and yet I keep debating canceling it😫

Edit: I just want to make it clear that I will go in, I know I have to, I just don’t understand why this is so difficult for me. I went regularly with my others and looked forward to them like a normal person.

And yes, home Dopplers do work this early if you know what you’re looking for. I know the difference between the sound of my pulse, the woosh of the placenta, and the galloping baby’s heartbeat. I definitely am finding baby.