We have been TTC for 8 months now. My husband has low motility and he is doing anything and everything I ask of him to help improve it. Only 7 million motile. He is amazing and the best guy I could ever imagine to be the father of my children. He has two children from a previous marriage and I have none. I am struggling so much and trying to deal with this silently. I cry almost every day all alone. I don’t tell my husband this because I don’t want him to feel like I blame him or it is his fault. I’ve tried to talk about my struggles to him and he is understanding but told me that it makes him feel bad about himself. I know it’s something he can’t help but I crave motherhood and I feel like it’s never going to happen naturally but I want it to sooo bad. And I just find it so unfair that he’s already had two children and now he just can’t and that’s all I ever wanted was to be a mom. I love my bonus babies with all my heart but I want to be called mom and I would never force that on them. I just want to be mom. How do you guys handle the longer journey and all the tears without hurting your husbands feelings? I don’t talk about our infertility with friends or family because I don’t want them to keep asking if it’s happened yet and having to keep saying no every month.