I need to vent real fast. My last pregnancy I gained like 50-60 pounds. I lost literally all that weight and now I’m pregnant again. I’m 15 weeks today. I’m not sure if my scale is completely accurate here at home but if so I’ve already gained close to 20.

I’ve been eating way more healthy! And get in a workout when I can. (I also have a 1 & 1/2 year old so I’m constantly lifting him plus we live on the 3rd floor) so it’s not like I’m not active. I feel like a damn whale & I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I don’t feel beautiful at all. Weight has always been a problem for me. I’m either way too skinny or too heavy. It kills my self esteem. If it were up to me I’d starve for the rest of this pregnancy so I didn’t gain anymore. I feel like if I even look at a cheese burger I’ll gain 5 more pounds.