Friend just told me she's pregnant, I've miscarried twice

Mindy • Mommy to an Angel, Currently pregnant with my Rainbow

Hi everyone, I don't really have any friends or family I can talk to so I was hoping I could vent to you...

My friend, who used to be my best friend but we've had a bit of a falling out, just sent me a message on Snapchat telling me she's 9 weeks pregnant... I've miscarried twice that I know of, maybe more, and she knows that so I was surprised when she just sent a message instead of telling me in person... She hasn't been there for me during my miscarriages either so I'm not sure how to feel...

My husband and I have been ttc for close to 3 years without any luck and I've been put on birth control now to try and get my cycles regulated... I feel so gutted and jealous but I want to be happy for her... I'm just having a hard time since it seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant and I'm not... I hate feeling like this, I hate crying all the time...

I've delt with depression for most of my life and have been taking Zoloft and seeing a therapist... I just can't seem to get over these feelings