Hey.. I recently got broken up with in December by my ex.. because he said that I cheated on him back in May.. in my eyes it wasn’t cheating .. because we weren’t together but we did get back together a day or so later. Anyway

We met on a gaming system Xbox, playing COD.. anyway when I met him he was a virgin, church boy no job all he did was play video games, he was a Mormon he was due to leave for his mission for the “LORD” when we got together

He didn’t go because he was in love with me and I was happy he lost his virginity to me and his church found out and he was no longer allowed there he didn’t care because he loved me and I was happy

, we met in January started dating in February I know quick right ? I was recently getting over my own heartbreak before I met him and I explained to him that I just got my heart broken and I’m not the same as I was before he said he loves me regardless of who I am or what has happened that has made me into the person that I am.

We fell in love . I got him a two jobs, credit, helped him with a car, he signed up for college.. helped him get his license.. i was 21 at the time he was 18

Now he’s 19 & I’m 22 and pregnant with his child. Before we broke up I found out I was pregnant 2 times with his kid had a miscarriage both times though this one seems to be successful. When we broke up we were still messing around at the time and he said we could be friends with benefits or fuck buddies I agreed because I was heartbroken at the fact that we broke up and I would do anything to keep him happy even if it meant hurting me in the end.. I was always driving to his house he lived 4 hours away from me so that’s 4 hours from home and four hours back driving home when he got his car in October he was barely driving to me anyway.. I did most the driving to him than he did to me.. sad right? Anyway when we broke up we went to the movie theaters as friends and he was texting all these girls (mind you we just broke up 3 days ago)

I tried to hide my feelings for him because it seems he was already moving on planning on Fucking all these girls..texting them right in front of me.. anyway we went to the movies and it was dark and empty he asked for some and I gave him some after we had sex he said to me “I hope this helps you move on” like how ?? I questioned myself why do I keep doing this to myself ? Because I loved him that’s why.. stupid I know .. TRUST ME I know

When we broke up he told me he still loves me and had love for me

He told me I was his first love I’m like dude if I was your first love you wouldn’t be fucking around like this and act like I don’t exist .. and you treat me like trash now.. don’t even care about the shit you say to me.

Tell me oh I’m about to go fuck this bitch right now while I’m with you. And showing me other girls you talk to .. like why ? You are intentionally trying to hurt me and he’s been doing this for 3 weeks now .. . He had sex with me and then tells me we are never getting back together... Why are you such a dick to me ? Then he was holding me a few nights ago kissing on me said I love you and then takes me to Victoria secret buys me stuff and then tells me we will never be back together . I’m like Why do you keep doing this to me ? I get that i messed up and lost you but this is plain heartbreaking..

he started going on a online app .. some girl got my Snapchat because of mutual friends and sent me a message asking for a 3 some with them wtf ... he tells me he didn’t know she was going to add me but she sends me screenshots of her SAYING to him she was going to add me and he said ok .. I’m pregnant with your child and you are trying to do everything you can to make me have a miscarriage. She sends me pictures of his dick I’m like wow he’s sending you this already ? We barely broke up.. anyway.. he tells me he care about me and the baby and tells me to keep it . So I did.

Next thing you know

He starts dating this girl at his job two weeks after we broke up .. I’m like how can you be in love with me and do me like this ? I didn’t cheat ! You just wanted to date someone else just say that and try different pussies.H

Anyway when he started dating her he acted like me and his child didn’t exist .. he told his friend that he wishes I have a miscarriage. So that people can stop asking him about it..

his gf found out I was pregnant and told me he said I had a miscarriage I sent her a pic of my ultra sound and told her I am very much pregnant .. idk what he has told you but it’s okay enjoy your relationship.. he then text me and ask me to lie and say I’m not pregnant like wow that’s really low of you .

Next thing you know she was going to break up with him and he said he will be in the babies life if she doesn’t leave him .. isn’t that sad ? How pussy has to leave you for you to be involved in your kids life ?

He wrote me the other day and told me he no longer loves me I’m just a friend holding his baby..

here I am 2 months pregnant still crying because I’m doing this alone and going to school .. but I have to be strong .. any advice ? Please no negativity towards me ..