Me TTC for months and my BF it's going to get an Abortion

Well... I've been TTC after a miscarriage more than a year ago.

It is... hard seeing how people without even planning it had their children and pregnancy totally healthy. The envy sometimes takes me but...

Today I found out my BF was pregnant, and first I got really glad for her, and almost started planning right away the baby shower, the appointments and everything on my mind.

But then she told me, her baby would not be born. I asked why, and then she told me she was planning an abortion.

Then my heart broke...

I felt, sad 'cause i've been trying so hard with no luck. And she prefer her baby to not be born... and... i feel bad for feeling that way too.

'Cause it's her right if she doesn't want it. And I should be supporting her 'cause she's my friend and I know it is going to be hard for her.

But I just stood silent.