Am I wrong for considering adoption...?

I’m a teen mom. My boyfriend is in school full time. He doesn’t help at all.

I was supposed to work and make my maternity leave.

At 16 weeks my amniotic sack started leaking. I was going for ultrasounds every week to measure my fluid levels.

At 18w4d my cervix was measuring 5.7cm and closed.

At 19 weeks we found out we were having a baby boy💙 We were also told my levels had stabilized and there was no further concerns.

At 20 weeks (March 7) I went for another ultrasound, my cervix is 3.2cm and closed. My doctors put me on bed rest until further notice. They also said my fluid levels have dropped again.

I have no support or help and I’m feeling so lost.. this pregnancy has been a nightmare and I feel beyond disconnected from my baby. I’ve been considering adoption but my boyfriend refuses to let me look into it and contact adoption agencies (mind you I’m $1000 in debt, can’t work and he’s in school full time and doesn’t help out)

I guess this was more of a rant then anything.. I feel so terrible for not wanting my baby & part of me feels I didn’t go through all of this for nothing but the other part wants to forget all of this happened. I feel so broken and sad.

Does anyone have any advice or suggestions?😔😭💔