My worst nightmare...came true.

I am currently 18 weeks. I went in for an ultrasound. What I thought would be a happy time, turned out to be my worst nightmare. We found out I'm carrying a little girl. My ultrasound took longer than usual, I was getting worried. When I finally asked the doctor if everything was ok, he sighed and looked at us. I knew it wasn't good news. My little Isabela is missing the top part of her skull. Her little brain is out in the open. I was told that if I carried her to term, she wouldn't live longer than a week, if even that.

My boyfriend I are devastated at this news. He just had a brush with death himself and now, our beautiful baby girl is going through this. I waited 9 years for her and to lose her now is heartbreaking. I'm lost, don't know what to do. Do I terminate now and spare her the suffering or keep going through the pregnancy and have her suffer now?

I feel so empty.