Beware the Ides of March

Okay so I don’t know about any of you, but with the coming hot weather, I get super insecure about my skin tone. I’m extremely pale/porcelain and it’s really hard to go outside wearing pants and hoping nobody mentions how light my complexion is. I want to wear shorts and bikinis and embrace the skin my Irish ancestor’s gave me, but it seems like I can’t wear anything that shows my skin without people asking me “why I’m so white” or telling me I need to get more Vitamin D. I have light skin and freckles and blonde hair and I avoid light colored clothes at all costs in hopes to bring some color to my image. But I just have never been able to enjoy Spring and Summer because I’m so afraid of what people say about me. I’ve never viewed myself as pretty and I’ve spent countless dollars on spray tans just so I can go outside feeling okay in a pair of shorts or a bathing suit. Do any of you who share this trait feel the same way or do you love yourself? Do you think that pale skin is ugly? How can I learn to stop caring about what other people think?