Breastfeeding zombie just suffering through

Literally how I feel. I had a small goal of 3months breastfeeding and quite frankly was ready to give up after 3days.

First the issue was latch and LO getting tired and not eating.

Started pumping in hospital and giving syringe.

Got home, felt like he was getting NOTHING.

Finally, milk came in (and plenty of it). Still having latch issues. Baby’s weight was down at first appt.

Some days I feel like the latch it better and others it’s excruciating and I want to give up. Had one meltdown and was ready to exclusively pump.

I’m still trying. Feel like I’m a slave to breastfeeding, there is NO break. I never thought it would be this hard.

NOW on top of everything else, I think I’m producing too much and have forceful let down. Baby chokes and has issues keeping up with milk.

Ughhhhhhhh I’m still trying but, WOW!

This. Is. Hard.

Can’t see a lactation consultant until later this week.

Hoping someone can relate, give advice, share similar struggles? Anything to get me by..,