5w3d and terrified to do anything

Anyone else? After several miscarriages it’s hard to get excited about being pregnant.

I’m terrified to:

Have sex

Drink anything other than water

Poop

Do too much exercise

And the list goes on and on

I have literally put myself on bedrest because of my fears. Every time I go to the bathroom I’m always check for bleeding. This is no way to live, however I want this baby to make it so badly it’s what I feel like I need to do. How are you guys dealing with the stress and fear?