So a friend of mine told me she was pregnant tonight and of course when I got home from work I started to cry and just be extremely upset. My husband demanded to know what was wrong and I tried brushing it under the rug because I knew what he would say but I told him anyway and this is what he says to me “Who cares, you’re just jealous, you don’t even see her.” “All my friends could get their wives pregnant at the same time and you know what I would say? Awesome dude congrats.” And I was running out to a friends who owes us money and he was like “if this is how you’re going to be and can’t control your emotions, don’t come back.” So naturally I put my phone on do not disturb and didn’t answer his calls or texts for over an hour until I finally got back home and just went to bed. I haven’t said anything to him since I left. I’m really just tired of being told I’m jealous of someone who is pregnant when that isn’t even the case at all. I’m happy for my friend. I’m not jealous of her for being pregnant. I’m mad at my body for not being able to do what so many others can do so easily. I’m upset. I’m not jealous. I’m heart broken every month that AF shows her ugly fucking face and I have to wait two weeks to start trying again with hormones and medications and assistedness from numerous doctors and being poked for bloodwork to check your levels and everything that comes with trying to conceive. Men don’t even realize the pressure that it puts on us. What we have to go through just to have our own children. God forbid we’re upset about something that should come natural to us.