Pregnant, Homeless, with 2 kids

UPDATE: I found a women’s shelter about an hour away, so I took my kids there. We’re spending our first night there & I’m currently looking for jobs to start ASAP. I haven’t told anyone where I am and I’m not going to tell anyone, I legally have to tell my oldest daughters dad but unless he asks I’m not telling him and I’m only telling him the town if he does. The women’s shelter is gonna help me get a job, get back into college, find a house, find furniture, help me get baby stuff for my son who will be here in 3 months and help me get stuff for my daughter. I’m so happy to finally be free and I see myself only going up from here. Thank you ladies for the support. 💕

I had my own house, it was furnished and was all bills paid for $800 a month, 2 bedroom, 1 bath. I was living there for about a month but my dad always said the house was a POS and always said I needed to come home and save my money for a nicer house.

Well, I finally caved after he told me things would be different (no yelling, no abuse, etc). I move back in, I’ve been there for about 4 days, trying to find a job in the area. Every day I’ve been there I’ve cooked, picked up after my kids, made his plates, picked my brothers up from school, even helped my mom with their laundry while keeping up with mine and my kids, even putting a bit of food into the house.

But every day I’ve been there I’ve dealt with verbal and emotional abuse, as have my toddler daughters.

He makes racist remarks about my youngest daughter (she’s Mexican), he uses racist slurs about other races, homophobic slurs, and yells at them for simple small things like, them eating and making a mess (even when I clean it up), my oldest (3) fell asleep in his chair last night. He was in his room watching tv in bed, got up for something, saw she fell asleep while watching cartoons and yelled at her. I was on the phone with my youngest sister when this happened so I have a witness.

Well, about 5 minutes after ^ ordeal he started screaming at me for some more dumb shit (I don’t know what it had to do with, it was genuinely so unimportant and minuscule that I can’t remember), but he went off on me telling me I’m worthless, a POS, a welfare queen (I’m not on welfare) and then made fun of me for my ex husband cheating on me and abandoning my daughter and made fun of my rape (I got pregnant with my now pregnancy with). Meanwhile, my sister is on the phone with me and hears all this.

So I was up all night, my youngest was sick and so was I. I think we had food poisoning, but we were up all night. So about 6 am, I finally get her to sleep (she’s 14 months) and I finally fall asleep on the couch. My brother (16) was getting ready for school and witnessed me getting sick and her and even helped me get her laid back down after I got her cleaned up, so again, I have a witness. But i ended up falling back asleep, well I guess it was like 10:30 and I was still asleep. My 3 year old had gotten up and grabbed a poptart and was watching cartoons (her morning ritual, I trust my child enough to know I can leave her alone anyways, she’s never been the type to get into stuff, although I do understand it’s unsafe to leave a child alone) and my 15 month old was still asleep as well. Well my dad came in screaming at me that I’m not gonna sleep all day and to get up and take care is my kids and quit letting them run around the house (mind you my 15 month old was asleep in her crib next to me). Told me to leave his house because he’s tired of looking at me. So I got up, got dressed, dressed my kids. I had an interview at a new job at 2:30 and I was 10:30 am so I headed towards it, visited some friends to pass time. Didn’t come back home till almost 8 pm.

Well when I got home tonight my sister had dropped off her 2 twin boys (2 years old) and left to go grocery shopping. My brother (12) was watching them and gave them my youngests sippy cups to drink out of (she only has 2). Well My sister comes gets the boys almost immediately after I got there and I start trying to get my kids to bed. I can’t find the sippy cups, I looked for hours. Well my stepmom gets home at 10 and helps me. She can’t find them either. I’m pregnant, my youngest is screaming, my oldest is grumpy because i can’t come key with her, so I clearly want to get these found. Well my dad starts bitching about how I’m a shitty mom because I can’t keep track of sippy cups, etc. I Ignore him. He starts telling me I’m stupid, a bitch, etc. at this point my stepmom chimes in and tells him to stop. He keeps going. I obviously defend myself and he starts attacking my kids, saying a lot of really mean hurtful shit. Mad because I won’t abort my pregnancy, mad because I won’t let him claim my kids on his taxes (he hasn’t ever taken care of them), he kept jabbing his finger into my chest, I was holding my kids at this point because they were scared and upset and he grabbed my arm and was pushing me.

He ended up kicking me and my kids out because after, once again making fun of my rape, I told my stepmom and showed her proof that he had been cheating on her with the girl across the street. A lot of people know. My stepmom has known too but has been scared to confront my dad. Well he ended up jerking my arm and pushing me outside, my kids in their diapers, wouldn’t let me have any of their stuff, kicked us out with no place to go. Telling me he’s gonna call DHS on me now that I’m homeless and make sure I lose my kids. I have videos and proof of his abuse. He’s also running for city counsel and I have videos of him using racial and homophobic slurs. Even oh him screaming at my stepmom and punching my 16 year old brother in the face, etc. Clearly drama isn’t what I’m wanting, I just want to get away. But I had to come to a friends house because it was that or sleep in the car with my kids. I’m now homeless and scared he’s gonna try and take my kids (he’s a felon btw with domestic abuse etc so I know he won’t ever get them). I just don’t know what to do.