So scared to test

I’m nauseous- VERY nauseous- like trying hard not to vomit. My period is due in 3 days but I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant- this is how I felt last time.

At this point if my symptoms are already heavy a test would show positive, but I’m SO scared.

We tried 13 cycles for the first one that we lost, there is NO way I got pregnant on my first cycle after the loss.

I almost don’t want to know one way or another. What if it is positive? Idk if I’m ready.

Don’t get me wrong ALL I want is a baby.

But I feel sicker now then I did my whole first pregnancy and I’m terrified