OMG! OMG!!!!

So, i have been pretty crampy the past couple weeks. I was not thinking anything of it because i felt this cramping since literally the day after me and my hubby had sex on the day of ovulation. no joke, the very next morning i felt cramping. But its IMPOSSIBLE to feel anything to that degree this early, let alone the day after having sex. like what?Then my nausea hit. Every morning just worse and worse, but i still was thinking, its still way too early. I took a test just cuz i needed to stop my mind from going a million miles a minute thinking what if? and of course it came out negative.

So at this time i decided to tell hubby what was going on and he looks at me and goes "you're pregnant. I felt it that night we had sex, i knew the second i came in you that was it." Naturally i didnt believe him, but in his defense, the last 2 times he had that "feeling", i ended up being pregnant. So at this point i am starting to go crazy, i didnt want to wait these 2 weeks, it was all i could think about. As the days went on i knew something was really up. at 6 DPO, (i know this because i checked the calander) i woke up in morning and walked passed the bathroom to wake up my kids. As i was walking i could actually smell the freaking TOILET WATER, yyyeeeeahh thats exactly what i needed at 6 in the morning to start my day. my husband just giggles and says to me "yup. you're pregnant." I took another test right then because i had the strong sense of smell with my boys. and also kind of weird but when i was pregnant with my boys, both times when ever i would stretch out my body, the bottom of my abdominal muscles would actually hurt, and it ONLY happens when im pregnant. As soon as i give birth it stops and never comes back. so that was my second hint. So i took the test and it was Negative again and this time i got upset because i started believing that just maybe my body is acting a lot faster. but in the same aspect i knew it was still entirely too early to detect anything.

Fast forward to this past weekend, my cramps were getting a little crampier and it never went away not to mention i have been unbelievably emotional, like me and hubby keep going at it, then ill cry, then laugh and then want to choke him again lol. I suffer from anxiety and depression so my moods tend to go up and down so nothing was really seeming out of the normal for me, other than the pain when i stretch.

When i woke up this morning i layed in bed debating to take the last test i had, my period wasnt due until the 3rd but i told myself fuck it. My husband was still asleep, and my kids were distracted watching Wild Kratts. I got nervous and stared at the window waiting for that line but then i got so nervous i started feeling sick to my stomach and i turned that test upside down. When i got the balls to look, this is what i got!!!! i was so excited i like yelped and ran right into my room and jumped on my husband, and ended up scaring the living crap out of him, he was in a dead sleep. poor guy, i couldnt help it. Tho i'm kind of pissed at myself for doing that because i actually was going to do something special for him to find out we are pregnant since this will be our last child. Its whatever tho, because in the end all that matters is that this new bundle of joy will be healthy.

i apologize for this long rant, like so many other women, since i can't tell anyone else i thought i would share it with my Glow family!

I made an appointment with my OB over the week just to go consult to talk about conceiving, so i will be going to that appt tomorrow. Im going to get a blood test just so i can make sure that this is not a chemical pregnancy or anything since the line is kind of faint. im praying that this is real.

And to all the mamas out there still trying, your time WILL come. Baby dust to all <3