I'm going to lose my shit!

I'm nearing my wits end with him.

I love my boyfriend but I thought things would be different. When he's home all he does is play video games. I get that he's now the soul provider but its not like his job has gotten harder. He belittles what I do as a mother making it seem so easy yet he can't handle holding our crying baby for 5 min. And yet he wonders why I snap at him. Anytime I ask him to do something he calls it nagging. I'm getting sick of it.

I know he loves our son. When he does interact with him I can see it. I just didn't think his attitude would be this way. I get so mad when he comments about how I get to be home all day "doing nothing". If I then say anything he says I'm acting crazy like my mother and that I should go live with her then....well maybe I will.

I didn't think I had PP depression until I read how anger can be a symptom. Well I definitely have that. I feel so alone in this. If my mom lived closer I know she'd help. I'm just so conflicted.