So disappointed!

Today AF arrived 4 days late and on Mother’s Day! Been crying all day as was so certain this was our month as had symptoms of sore nipples, pulling sensations in stomach, enlarged breasts, craving sweet things, my breasts do usually get slightly bigger before af but not this big or sore, I never get sore nipples or have stretching/pulling/pinching feeling in stomach and I’ve more of a savoury than sweet tooth. Now I just feel like a greedy, fat failure of a woman and to top it all I keep getting Mother’s Day group messages sent to me on Facebook and seeing/hearing about pregnancies and kids all day. I haven’t told my fiancé yet as he’s at work but I feel like such a let down as he already has 5 kids from 2 previous relationships (his youngest child was from a one night stand!) he really wants a family with me that won’t be broken up and he is the first man I’ve wanted to have children with i feel so low and like such a failure! I hope I’ve not left it too late but we only got together a year ago but were best friends for. 5 years before that sorry for life story just had to let it out before I tell him (he will be great btw and will tell me I’m not letting him down and that he’s just happy to have me whether we have kids or not but I know I am)

* he turned 38 beginning March and I turned 40 in September