Relationship advice ... PLEASE READ

I’ve been with my boyfriend for about a year now. We live together and have two dogs together. But reality is, we moved too fast. We are both about to turn 21 and we are getting back on track with finishing college. I need to move a few states away to be near my mom and brother because my brother is sick and not doing well but my boyfriend has to stay in NC for school. I emotionally can not handle a long distance relationship, I’ve done one before. It’s too much for me. I love my boyfriend. But honestly, I’m not emotionally ready for a relationship as much as I want to be. I’ve been in and out of relationships since I was in middle school. I forgot what it’s like to be single. I’ve never taken time to focus on myself but rather on other people. My therapist said it’s something to do with my childhood. Idk. I never liked to be alone. So when I started dating I started to get attached easily. I know I need to take a break from my boyfriend, and maybe in time we will find our way back to each other or we won’t. But what’s holding me back from ending things is I’m scared. The thought of him being with another girl makes me feel sick. One of the main reasons I can’t end things is because I don’t want him to be with another girl. That probably makes me sound selfish.. I just don’t know what to do. I broke up with all 4 of my exes and I was okay but I didn’t love them. My last ex I did love and I couldn’t imagine my life without him but after he cheated on me so many times I gave up and left him and within a week I started seeing my current boyfriend. What should I do? As much as I love him, he doesn’t do anything to make me happy. He doesn’t take me out, he just wants to play video games and he never cleans up after himself. We both work, but on days off he never wants to do anything. I’m miserable. But I’m so in love with him. Sometimes I get the courage to leave, but the second he comes home and I look at him I just feel the love I have for him build back up and I can’t imagine being without him. I love him but I know I deserve better than how he treats me. Ugh this probably makes no sense and I’m just going on and on. But does anyone get what I’m trying to say/ask? 🙁