Surgery planned

I’m looking for some support if possible.

I’m trying to be strong and sound confident with my husband because he’s freaking out. I have stage IV endometriosis and I’ve been dealing with it for 20 years. I’ve had multiple laparoscopic surgeries but this one seems different.

It feels wrong some how. I have a bad feeling and nothing is helping. I’ve been due for surgery for a few years and ever since our miscarriage in July the symptoms have been compounding. I’m worried that they’ll have to take one or both of my tubes or just flat out say IVF is our only chance.

I needed to not pretend I’m ok and ready for this because I’m not. But for my husband I have to be or he and I will agree to back out of the surgery and I really need it.