*Longish & hormonal rant*

I'm hating my pregnancy brain right now! And not the forgetful part....No, the "I can't get unpissed off to save my life" hormone part.

So my fiance never actually cheated on me, (something I NEVER woulda pegged him for with all his ex's have done to him), but dear lord he's been stupid as fuck....like 3 times. I'm the type of girl who thinks anything sexual related (touching or not) is cheating cause...wtf dude I'm right here. A few months into our relationship he sent, received & stupidly saved sexual videos with another girl. Saving them is what got his ass caught...figures I'd find out 3months after as I'm grieving for my grandpa. I didn't forgive him, but I kept him. Then just after our 1yr anniversary I found he'd "❤" some nasty crack-thin body bitches Instagram pics...one being 2days after I miscarried our 12weeks son & had surgery. THAT hurt. He's always been fearful that I'd cheat....that's NEVER been me. I know that pain, I'll NEVER be the one to inflict that.

So fuckup #3 was a random "friend from HS" was hittin him up on good ole Facebook. A month after finding out I'm pregnant, he's suuuuper distant. I expressed my unhappiness with it & Her so he unfriended her. I'm not satisfied & ask to see their texts...wuddya know..."babe it got deleted when I unfriended her"😐. 9weeks later and I cannot get this shit outta my head & it's driving me nuts! Not getting to see their chit chat is killin me! I know my hormones are making it worse & I do Not KNOW what to do....💔💔💔😭😭😭😟😤