Relationship advice

Hayley • hi! I'm Hayley 😊

I was with someone, Christian, who I loved for 2 years and I did everything for him, and yet he still treated me like I was beneath him. I never ever thought that while I was in the relationship, but I constantly would feel guilty about wanting to leave the relationship because he would always say, "oh you'll just leave me for a rich, hot guy. If I marry you, you'll just divorce me and leave me for another guy. If you leave me for another guy, I will track you both down and hurt you." I never have told anyone those things he said to me just because I don't want anyone to think he's a bad person. When we first started our relationship, he didnt want to spend every day with me(which was okay at first), but then he wouldn't really make an effort until like 5 months in, and even then he barely wanted to see me. He would constantly make me feel bad about everything and say mean jokes to me, and when I'd get upset, he would get angry at me even though he was the one who hurt MY feelings. He got angry at me because I didnt want to go to college to be a nurse and instead I wanted to do what I loved and major in education and english. Yes, we had good and bad times during the relationship and I hate to be a negative Nancy, but the bad outweighed the good. I actually lost 20lbs just from stress. And when I was depressed and upset and had my first ever break down in front of him, he called me weak and I have never been more angry in my life, and I decided I did not want anyone to ever call me weak again. I moved in with his sister because he said he wanted space(his sister is amazing and like family to me)He broke up with me not long after that because I told him I didn't want to be lead on and to tell me what he wanted. Its only been a few weeks but I feel so free and I cried a little bit at first but honestly, I've never felt better. Someone who I have known since middle school asked me on a date and I said yes. ever since then, he has wanted to hangout with me all the time, he is always complimenting me and telling me how wonderful I am to spend time with, he's so kind, and respectful, and I like being around him so much. I'm scared to tell anyone that I like him because I don't want people to tell me that it's too soon, but I don't feel that way. People have been telling me I look so much happier lately and I feel so much happier as well. Is it too soon for me to feel so strongly about someone after a long relationship? I'm 19 and I want to live life how I want to because I literally have my whole life ahead of me. When I'm with Patrick, everything just clicks and feels so comfortable, I don't feel stressed at all around him. I would just like some advice lol