Ttc is so much work

I'm super discouraged n just tired. Last month my period was 3 days n very light (super odd for me) when I ovulated I had my wisdom teeth pulled and baby dancing was only 2-3 times this cycle cause of my pain. I'm sitting here at 12dpo with my temps still high, first response is negative but clear blue shows a super faint line (cant get a pic). I'm giving up hope that this month will be my month 🙄. Everyone around me is announcing they are pregnant and I just want my positive already 😭. I know I'm not out till AF shows her ugly face but it's still discouraging. I'm really hoping I get a bfp for my birthday which is next week but I'm not holding my breath anymore 🤷‍♀️.