I said fuck it

I have a hair pulling disorder that I can't always control. I have had short hair since I was 6 (im 20) exept in highschool roughly 5 years ago. I had long hair. I loved it. I had it for about 2 years before I pulled too bad and had to shave it off.

I've been pulling for 6 hurs a day for the past 2 days. When I don't pull I'm stressed and angry and hate myself. I end up not pulling for a month or two but then I pull. If I'm gonna end up pulling then what the hell why go through the few months of hell.

I'm not posting anonymous because I'm open about this with the good and the bad

I'm open to questions and such too

This is rn. I'm working on the other side ATM and I can't seem to stop. I don't want to stop tbh. Even tho I'll end up looking like an old man with baby whispy hairs. Typing helps with not pulling BTW

I'm not posting anonymous because I'm very open about trichollilomania