Coping with PTSD, I’ve hit a plateau

I don’t really know where to start, or what’s compelling me to write a post. I guess I just feel like I need to get this out.

I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression about 3.5 years ago. To save you the details, it was due to a sexually and emotionally abusive relationship. I’ve been seeing my clinical psychologist ever since he diagnosed me, and he’s absolutely amazing. He’s made such a huge impact on my life that I consider him my second dad. While I’m miles away from where I used to be, I feel like I hit a plateau, and it’s causing me to spiral backwards a little.

I don’t have any friends where I live. I moved to Chicago 4 years ago, and when I first got here I was in terrible shape. I didn’t know what was wrong with me because I had never been properly diagnosed. But now that I’m doing somewhat better, I guess I thought I would be able to make a friend or two by now.

My thoughts are so conflicting lately. I feel better overall, but I am still struggling to find enjoyment in anything. I have complete loss of interest. Complete loss of sex drive (my poor husband lol). Absolutely no motivation to concentrate at work. I find myself staring blankly at my laptop for what feels like hours. It’s such a weird feeling to not have the physical symptoms, that anxiousness and constant paranoia. I feel content and uninterested at the same time. But mostly I just feel so alone.