Postpartum depression

Okay guys i finally admit it. I think ive got pp depression. I love my baby girl and even when her dad gets annoyed at her constant crying (she had colic) i never do i just have a go at him for losing his cool and try to comfort her. But there have been a few times where iv just broken down crying. Like right now. Im really unwell and i cant get her to sleep and its taking its toll on me. Recently shes been good at night when i put her down but tonight nothings working. Constant crying. I keep trying to be a good mom so keep pushing through and feel like i almost have to prove myself. I would never admit this out loud but i have pp depression. Even when the health visitor asked me if i was feeling down at my last check up i lied and said i never feel down or sad. Im now crying uncontrollably in the other room as i write this and have told my husband to keep an eye on her. Will have to go back and try again in a sec as she doesnt go down with him she just goes down with me every night. So no question really, just needed to let that out. Thanks for reading.