I was completely blindsided

Monday was my 24th birthday, yay me! I had a great day. My boyfriend who is stationed overseas sent me a sweet card saying he loves me and had a surprise for me when he comes home NEXT FRIDAY. I was so excited. Everything in our relationship was great, so I thought. Yesterday morning on my way to clinicals, he kept asking what time I get out of clinicals, what time I go in, if I’m driving, etc. He called me when I pulled into the hospital. He was quiet like he couldn’t find the right words to say. Then it finally came out... “I can’t be with you anymore. I just don’t love you like I use to. I feel like I’m having to force my relationship with you.” Again, he is coming home next Friday, and we would’ve been celebrating 5 years together. But just like that, he gave up on me and our relationship. I’m in complete disbelief. I started asking him questions. “Was it something I did? Is there someone else? Why? This isn’t fair to me.” His response was, “don’t call or text me anymore because I won’t answer.” In that moment, I deleted him from everything. I deserve so much better than that. Everyone keeps saying “he’ll realize he made a mistake and come back.” Yes, I cried my eyes out. Yes, I’m still very much upset. It’s like a rollercoaster of emotions. But I refuse to get back with him if he does. You don’t truly love someone if you can drop someone out of your life in the blink of an eye. I don’t want that type of man. I stuck with him through the long distance for almost 2 years. He even gave me a promise ring over a year ago. I’m heartbroken, but I want and deserve more than that. Here’s to another day of pushing through..... prayers would be greatly appreciated!