I have really sporadic depressed episodes. Sometimes they’re so bad it’s hard to not try and kill myself. sometimes it’s just only really hard not to self harm.

sometimes i’ll sleep 16 hours and not get out of bed.

they happen like once a week at least and i’m not sure what to do. i don’t think i’m depressed enough or consistently enough to seek therapy. i’m on antidepressants, and i’m not depressed about anything in particular.

i don’t know what i should do?

the feeling of wanting to die is akin to craving a bag of chips. im hungry and i really want it, but i know it’s not good for me.