Honestly I don’t know how to feel ... the 18th was the day I found out the results from my blood work but being I have access to my medical records online I was able to see the gender of my baby just now. My boyfriend is super excited because this is his first son I have 2 already * really wanted and thought my second was my baby girl but was wrong * and he has a daughter with someone already. I wasn’t getting to excited but I really thought this was it 😔... I’m kinda really sad. But don’t get me wrong I love my baby regardless just this really weird feeling I cannot explain. 3 boys is cool but I’m a mom and I want to experience that best friend bond with a little me now I’m starting to feel like it will never happen