Rape isn’t always being taken hostage by a stranger in an alley

We dated for 1 year... 1 year too long. I was so young. So innocent. You took advantage of that. Now that I’m older, I look back and see how terrible and mentally and emotionally abusive you were. You wouldn’t let me have any guy friends or any guys number, you didn’t even like me having normal girl friends.. I was 16 when you took it, my virginity. Stole it I guess is a better term. I wanted to save myself until marriage, you knew that. You made me vulnerable. “Good girlfriends give their boyfriends sex” well I want to be a good girlfriend... but I didn’t want to do that. I told you no. You got on top of me, told me it’s ok as I was pushing you and yelling at you “no, get off, I don’t want to do this”. Every single weekend, every single day over the summer, you guilted me into having sex with you 2-3 times a day. If I told you no, you’d give me the silent treatment. Get upset with me until I gave in and let you torture me. I couldn’t break up with you. Being the young innocent Christian I was, I thought I would go to hell if I broke up with you, I figured “maybe if I marry him I won’t go to hell for premarital sex”. I couldn’t take it anymore though. The obsession. The controlling behavior. If we fought, you would come to my house in the middle of the night and let yourself in, into my room. The torture of having to let you have your fun with me multiple times a day every day. You told me you would kill your self if I left you. But I finally did it. I ended it. You stalked me for 5 years after that. Came to my house a few times. Called me and texted me from different numbers. Had people calling me a slut in school and at football games when I really had only been with you, and didn’t even want that.... you followed me in the hallways. Always had me looking over my shoulder.

In 2014 I met my now husband. You continued to text me and Snapchat me. Until we got engaged in 2015 and my husband called you out on Facebook and tagged you. Haven’t heard from you since. Thank God.

I just had to get this off my chest, I’m finally becoming open with what I went through. I have forgiven and needed someone else to hear my story💕