I’m sure I’m not the only one, but I’ve probably taken over 50 hcg tests. FRER, clearblue, and a shit ton of cheapies. I’m 6w5d. This was a first <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> success with donor sperm that cost over $600 by itself.

Now, I’m getting the symptoms. Nausea, sore and tender breasts, food aversions, serious bloating and constipation.

But I can’t stop taking tests. I just have to see those lines pop up. And they do within seconds. But I’m so paranoid something will happen. I’m a big lady. Over 300 lbs. PCOS is a real buzz kill. So I’m just nervous. I don’t have my first ultrasound till this Thursday and I’m just worried something will be wrong and all the money and hard work and Magic I’ve put into this will be for nothing. I’m 32. It’s been 13 years since I’ve been pregnant. I was much younger, thinner. Now I’m just scared. I want this little bean so badly. It’s all I’ve thought about for a few years now.

I know that I need to calm down. I know that I need to de-stress. I just can’t wait to see my little bean baby and see/hear that heart beat and I’ll be set at ease I’m sure.

Picture of me yesterday.