I have been diagnosed with Herpes 1 down there for about a year, my 21st to be exact. I have only been with 2 people in my life, and I saw those two people didn’t care about my life like I did theirs. I have always wanted a family and to have my own kids, but it doesn’t seem like it will happen for me. I constantly have outbreaks despite me taking the medicine. I even have this ungodly odor down there, and I know I am super clean. I even changed underwear multiple times a day because I’m a bigger girl, and I sweat a lot. I used to have all the confidence in the world but that is cut to a minimum. I may have a great outside persona, but on the inside, I constantly have negative thoughts that really puts me in a dark place.

I think I’m just so scared of being judged or ending up alone that I fake my hard shell just to make it through the day.