I’ve been with my boyfriend a year and a month...

We are teens, he’s 18 soon to be 19 and I’m 17 soon to be 18

We never really got to hang out the way teens now a days do which is spend almost everyday together...

my mother is very strict and I was only allowed to see him on weekends, well just Saturday because Sundays it’s for family. I cried to her because she wouldn’t let me see my boyfriend a bit more often and she took it as in he was forcing me which he wasn’t. From there she started “hating” him

Fast forward I cannot see him at all till I turn 18 and that’s only because I’ll move out

I’m not allowed to see him because we had separated due to the fact that my mother and him got into a argument due to the fact my mom always told me bad stuff about him making it seem like he’s poor and we’re rich because we live better than him(no we’re not rich) so at the end of that my mom was like how could you let him talk to me like that, you’re dumb if you go back to him basically saying that we were broken up but according to him he never said anything about a breakup and I was there so I heard the whole thing and he didn’t disrespect my mother but I felt like I needed to be on my mothers side because hello she is my mothered so I called it off for 2 months... but we were on and off and I wanted to be with him but I felt like I was going to betray my mother so fast forward to dec 30th 2018 he decided to come to my house and talk to my mother. My mother was REALLY REALLY upset she started to hysterically scream at him and push him and as in for me she pushed me and pulled me by my hair and my dad just pushed me inside the house. Minutes later I end up fighting my way out of the house and called him to pick me and we left... but I had to return home because I am 17 and basically talked with him, his parents and they offered me their house (which we’re currently working so instead we could get our own apt ) then that night and days after that told my mother I wanted to leave and she told me okay but that it wasn’t gonna be easy and that if he was painting it rainbows and unicorns it wasn’t gonna be like that and NO he hasn’t been telling me all these good things he’s actually being realistic of how things are gonna he struggles etc etc since he’s very opened minded and has seen his parents struggled his lifetime and he’s also struggled and as in for me I haven’t... so he does slap me with reality,

Currently he’s been stressed about another way of getting a job and getting an apt and basically making more money cause the day is right around the corner (August 17) and he hasn’t been keeping track of me I guess... like he doesn’t really wanna talk anymore and he’s always frustrated which I understand but I feel like he’s tired of me and as in for me I just feel like my feelings faded but not at the same time I love him and I still wanna be with him and I don’t understand why I’m feeling like this.

Can anyone give me advice or something, I really don’t wanna end my relationship maybe it’s just a phase and I mean who would want to be on their phone 24/7 texting they’re gf/bf... he has important things to do for our future, for him, he has school and works, so yeah we’ve managed to get through all of this I can’t just leave and also yes I’ve seen him a few times behind my parents back and I do get butterflies and I feel in love but as in for now I feel lost...