Still struggling with unplanned birth

I know birth plans do not go accordingly. My first I was induced when I had planned/prepared for all natural.

I had really hoped to have that experience the second time around. However baby was breech to the very end which forced me into a c section.

I’m still devastated about the c section. I feel like it robbed me of bonding with my newborn right after he was born. I hate that my body was cut up and will now never be the same. I hate that I have this stupid c section shelf/pooch. I’m so resentful that I had to have it.

I’m grateful for my baby and know this is the only way he was going to get here safely. I’m grateful For the pregnancy and to carry my baby. But I cant help these disappointing feelings about the c section.