Nervous!

Hey everyone! This is my first time posting in this group, though I have been reading all of your posts the last few weeks. My name is Chloe! I’m 22, and will be 23 in August. I have a 2 year old son named Ryker! Before him, I had a missed miscarriage, with my ex, which turned out to be a blessing in disguise because it was not a good relationship and he was not a good guy. Then not long after met the man I’m currently still with 3 1/2 years later. Things aren’t perfect, but we’re good. Anyway! I quit taking my birth control around November or December because it was a waste- we literally never have sex (hence why I say things aren’t perfect, but we’re working on it), and I didn’t have medical insurance, so to spend that money every month for something that wasn’t really never being used, so to speak, seemed like a waste, and I was tired of the hormones as well and just wanted to feel like myself. Well, March 6th I was maybe a day late which can be normal for me, so I took a test and found out I was pregnant, and shocked. I told my boyfriend and he wasn’t the happiest, being as the day prior, we literally talked about having another baby and he wasn’t ready and didn’t want one. He’s much older than me, by the way. 34, soon to be 35, so about 12 years older. And he’s got 2 older kids from a prior relationship. But with my son getting older, I really wanted another for a sibling close in age with him that he can grow up with and be close to. Anyway, again, that’s about my back story, in short, but today I have my first technical OB appointment and I am very nervous. I can’t even be excited, even as much as I want to. With having the prior missed miscarriage, it really makes me nervous. I haven’t had any bleeding, but occasionally do get cramps, but I hear that’s normal, especially in a second pregnancy. My boobs used to be pretty sore but have gotten better. I had pretty bad nausea for a couple weeks and it’s mostly gone away, but I’ll get waves of it. I know symptoms come and go. But those have been my main ones. My gums are sore and bleed when I floss. I should be 11 weeks and 2 days today. My OB, he normally pulls an ultrasound right away, so I’m just freaking out and just really needed to get that off my chest. If you read it all, thank you for your time!