Finally I’m leaving my toxic relationship! LADIES I NEED SUPPORT IM BREAKING DOWN

So finally I’m leaving my husband we’ve been together almost 8yrs have a son together but 2yrs ago I made the worst mistake and cheated on him, he forgave me well that’s what I thought , he had some legal problems in Texas so we ended up moving to Mexico bcuz he’s on the run so we live with his mom over here worst decision ever, since we came to Mexico he’s physically, emotionally and verbally been abusing me and I can’t take it anymore, I have 2 other kids from a previous relationship but all 3 of my kids are back in Texas with my mom and I miss them so much so I finally decided to leave I hate it here his mom is crazy she has a real young bf he’s 25 and she’s 56 I don’t have a problem but he’s a drug addict he smoke rock now no one works here his mom is always bitching and just checking if we get food or water or whatever his brother also lives here he’s 32 he doesn’t have a job but expects for everyone to pay his things like if we order some food we have to order for him too oh but he has a gf that she just had a baby that he don’t even know if it’s his but gets mad when my MIL doesn’t give him money to spend with her but anyways besides all that tomorrow I’m finally leaving and right now I’ve been in the room with everything dark just laying down since I woke up I’ve just been crying bcuz I love my husband so much and I’ve showed him that I will never cheat on him again but I can’t take this I miss my kids and I think my kids are more important to me that any man

I just need support 😭😭😭😭

No rude comments plz