Today I found something he whittled for me in my car.

He's not the same ex that was super emotionally abusive.

This guy did lie to me our entire relationship about a substance abuse issue, and the lying was very hurtful. I would have stayed if he had been truthful and stopped dismissing my feelings and belittling me. I know he's going through a lot of hard stuff and he's got mental health issues that are definitely a problem.

But he was like my best friend when we were together and I am really sad it didn't work out. That's why I get so mad at him & about him.

Because if he just would be more respectful, we wouldn't have to be apart. Wtf bro. The stuff I needed was not even that hard to do for someone you love- just listen to my feelings when I ask and not be a dick.

It scared me he was lying so much I stopped believing everything he said.

I'm not sure if he loved me. He said he still does. But he disappeared for like weeks and ignored me on my bday.

I was hopeful we could work on things, but he just gets high & falls asleep.

He's so much better than this. I don't know what is happening to him :(

I'm very worried and we wish he could get more help for his mental illness.

He says I abandoned him, but I've always been here for him, I just can't stay with someone so mean, dismissive and dishonest after my ex before him was very emotionally abusive.

I've really tried to do the right thing, it just sucks.

We broke up in January, and I even have tried to move on, but baggage & my feelings makes me feel ill at the thought of dating.

I don't know if I want my ex back, because obviously there were issues.

I just love him & stuff, because he's cool and sweet and a lot of things I really like.

But he's also annoying lol.

I dunno man. It sucks it didn't work.

He's so smart and talented.

The guy i got involved with after him is cool too, it's just, not him & not the same connection. I'd be lucky to date that guy, but I don't wanna. I think I just, don't want to date. I need time.

*looks at watch* possibly forever!

On the bright side, im happy single.