Help me.

I can’t do this anymore 😢 I just left my appointment & she said since my blood pressure is fine she can’t do anything about anything & my cervix is still closed. I’m scared I’m gonna go over. I’m super swollen, I can’t fit ANY shoes not even flip flops or slides. I’m due in 9 days & im miserable. I can’t even take care of my 4 year old properly cause of the pain I’m in & with the baby sitting on my sciatic nerve. On top of that my bf doesn’t even want to attempt sex with me to hopefully soften my cervix. I’m sitting in the parking lot crying.