I like my friends’ crush 😥😓 (it’s serious, I need help)

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Alright, so, she liked him before I did because she used to go to afternoon lessons with him. I didn’t go to those lessons so I didn’t know him and she never told me who he was. She referred to him as ‘the boy at my lesson’.

Then, he decided to drop out of those lessons because he was no longer interested. My friend was sad about it so she started talking more to me about him. She sent me pictures and asked me if he was handsome etc. I didn’t find him handsome and said to her things like ‘he is okay’ ‘not really my type’ etc.

Then this event comes up (4 months after he dropped out of the afternoon lesson) and it was a whole game changer. He was there too and it was the first time I saw him face to face. The funny thing was that I didn’t realize who he was when I fell in love with him (or else I would not let feelings develop).

He was just staring at me, checking me out, I was staring at him, we had some intense eye contact and smiled to each other, that made me feel loved and I fell for him. Literally, I don’t know if you’ve experienced something like this, but as I was looking in his brown eyes, they literally turned blue. I was mesmerized. I really thought he was blue eyed until... A friend there has noticed we were looking at each other and she asked me if I know who he is. I said no because It hasn’t passed through my mind that it was him. She then told me and I really got disappointed. If she said it from the beginning then I would control my feelings.

Now I like the same person my friend does. She doesn’t even know. After that event my friend told her that we’ve seen him and she asked me so I said the truth: ‘he is really cute’ and to save it a bit i said ‘you’ve got a good taste’.

The problem is: I know that he is not interested in her (she said it to us before). So either she hasn’t got a chance, or If she does, it’s really small. Also probably up to now, it’s been half a year she hasn’t seen him. She is probably in a process of getting over him (if she isn’t already). Now, let’s say that he is interested in me, how bad of a friend will I be if I show interest too and we end up together? I mean, she now knows that I find him cute. And these feelings are hard to control. I really feel bad to do such a thing but this feeling is uncontrollable.

Also I’m not worried about our friendship. We are good friends and pretty close I’d say but she’s not the closest friend ever. We had bad incidents in the past together but we still are friends like nothing has ever happened. Won’t we with this too?

What are your thoughts on this whole situation?