Dieting/exercising/weight gain spiralling out of control

Kyoshi

Hey everyone. I don't really know how to start this so I'll just jump Right in. in the last two years I've gained about 50 to 60 lbs. Honestly I'm in a very happy almost three year long relationship and so I attribute a lot of it to that, but it's gotten to the point to where I can't seem to get the motivation to eat right or workout. I just have no desire to even though I've gotten quite a belly and It embarrasses me and I am constantly having to pull on my shirt or tuck my stomach into my jeans. I don't know what diets to do there are so many I feel so overwhelmed so much that sometimes the easiest thing for me is to just do nothing. I tried reading inspirational stuff and I just can't seem to get the workout bug that everyone seems to have. I feel totally lost and I want to be healthy but it's so hard. Can anyone else relate? Am I alone? Why does my willpower suck so much? I feel like such a piece of crap. Help me with any advice you have.