I’m struggling really bad with forgiving my brother. Even though he hasn’t apologized for the damage that he’s caused in my life , I still feel like I need to find it in me to forgive him , so that I could move on with my life. I come from an abusive family. When I was younger , it was physical abuse by my father and then mentally and emotional abuse for the next 22 years of my life from my mom’s boyfriend. I’m still hurting. I’m still damaged , but I have God in my life , so I’ve learned how to pray and ask him for guidance and help. I’m just having a really really hard time forgiving my brother. I don’t like hearing about him, every time I think of him , I get so angry ! I don’t want anything to do with him ! I’ve never felt this anger towards anyone in my life. He’s been such a bad person in my life who has just caused damage. He’s ruined multiple holidays and has ruined many happy things for me. I can go on and on about why I stay away from him. I just need to learn how to forgive so I can be at peace ! I don’t ever want to be close to him or anything, but I just want the peace.

I just needed to vent. My life hasn’t been the greatest , I’ve been though a lot , but I push myself everyday to be better and to learn how to love people around me !