How to deal with being a high school dropout..

I’ve been dealing with anxiety since the 5th grade and depression since 6th. My grades were amazing (when I did the work), but I couldn’t deal with it. I wasn’t taking care of myself, couldn’t even shower. I hid my depression well, convincing my parents I was just a lazy teenager. Things went downhill quickly. I ended up getting kicked out of my school due to poor attendance.

Eventually I told my dad I wanted to seek help and told him something wasn’t right with me. He supported me 100% and I got the help I needed. Now I have to deal with being a high school dropout.

My best friends graduation is this month (I would have graduated this year too) and it hurts so much. I’m proud of her but i know going will kill my mental health. I can already hear the questions from other students and see the looks on their faces. I broke down when I saw a picture of my cousin at prom. Knowing I’ll never have that kills me and sometimes I wonder why I keep going on if I couldn’t get through something as simple as high school.

How do I get through it? How do I move on?